Monday, October 29, 2012


I bet all of you have been in love with someone right? So... I am gonna talk about relationships/personal life/anything that is typed out below... (this is another impromptu post again)

We all know love hurts and it can be a bitch in your face sometimes. 


I have got to say it is the text-ing part!!!

Waiting for a text from the person you love the most, it just sucks... Meh! 

For the girls:
When your boyfriend don't reply your texts for 5-10 minutes... Well, it is okay, right? But once it exceeds that time, you will get mad, paranoid, insecure and thoughts starts to roll in your mind like a movie. Those "thoughts" might end up to 1) Quarreling 2) "ARE YOU WITH OTHER GIRLS!?" and 3) I know I am not good enough and I understand that you don't want to waste your time talking to me, I get it, it's okay... (so not okay hahaha) (I bet all the girls are like that, cause all of us are usually paranoid 24/7)

Problem with girls is that we tend to say "Nah, never mind, it's okay, I get it, you're busy..." when what we exactly feel is.... "SCREW YOU WHY DIDN'T YOU REPLY MY TEXT, DO YOU KNOW THAT I AM SO DAMN FREAKING WORRIED FOR YOU!? CAN'T YOU AT LEAST REPLY A 'OKAY' !?"

Yes, I don't really get myself too.

For the guys:
There are 2 types of boyfriend...

1) "I care that you didn't reply my texts" type:
Usually, the minute when your girlfriend replies to your text, and you will be like "Hey, why did you take such a long time to reply me?" And your girlfriend would say something like that "I'm sorry baby, I was busy with something." and that, goes on and on and on. (I do agree that guys are sometimes quite competitive in arguing...)

That kind of boyfriend usually annoys me but I find it kinda sweet compared to the type of boyfriend below. So guys, it is better for you to care and not be so unreasonable at the same time IF you are arguing with her on why she didn't immediately reply you text the moment she saw it. ;-)

2) "Meh, I don't really care if you didn't reply my text" type:
Hmmm they obviously do nothing about his girlfriend replying his text after 5/6/7/8 hours! So, I got nothing much to say about this type of boyfriend but I suggest you to not get one because your girlfriend will get mad if you don't care about her.

I am not so sure about the guys so, correct me if I am wrong. :-)

I bet this happens to everyone of us before!!! It may be your girlfriend, your crush or anyone...

And sometimes, waiting may lead to this...

But all we need is just a little something from the ones we love, a good night/good morning text...

Another problem that most relationship has is trust issues...

Lies that are made:
 The word trust, is a very big word. Some of us tend to screw up and lie.... What sucks the most? Is when the person you lied to found out that you lied to him/her. Some people might just forgive but not forget and some just break down into pieces and making themselves suffer for choosing the harsh decision of..... breaking up.....

Everyone flirts right? And some people who are in a relationship might end up being jealous and slowly, they don't even trust their own partners. I must say that it is very awful to see someone you love flirting with another good-looking and better girl/guy or the other way round. And *BAM* thoughts start to appear in our mind again and leading to lots of scenes that are impossible to happen but it was all our wishful thinking that made us so paranoid. 

Once you lost someone's trust, it is very hard to gain. So you better make sure you don't lie to the ones you love, a lie that is good or bad, it is still a lie.

God, obviously we all hate ending a relationship or walking away from someone you love. That feeling sucks but sometimes you just have to walk away, so that you won't get hurt more and leave more scars in your memories...

Breaking up, is a very terrible thing for me. I am not so sure about what others think of it but that feeling, is obviously awful. It is losing someone you love the most just in one day, and every other day, you are just being emotional, it's like being fucked mentally all over again everyday. 

I have seen all kinds of people after a break up... The people who are happy that they are a free bird now and is out of the cage & the people who are desperately wanting the person back or crying their heart out every single day about it.

It pains me to see the people crying... I can't imagine me myself, losing someone I love the most... Oh yeah, I already did... Someone who gave me a life, someone who raise me up but died... 

I hate seeing fake smiles....

Last but not the least, a message to all my haters out there. I LOVE YOU XOXO!

You may think that I actually give a fuck about what you say and think that you will make me end up at the state of being nowhere? OHHHHH NOOOOOO!!! You are so damn freaking wrong. 

Let me tell you something, if you don't like me, jolly well screw off then.

It's funny how you hate on me, but still follow me on twitter!!!

I take the pictures the way I want, I talk the way I like, I walk the way I want to, I wear the clothes that I love and who are you to judge me and say that I have no rights to do that? Who are you? My mother? HELL NO. 

The way I take pictures, talk, walk or dress up affects you? Then it's just too bad cause it is your problem. You can not follow me. But the next time, if you want to send hate messages to me on formspring or anywhere, don't do it anonymously. :-)

I suggest you to show yourself cause I really want to know who my haters are and  I wanna thank all of you, for making me so strong up till now. Your words made me strong.


And to some people out there,

I seriously can't stand you people who hate on people just cause your friends don't like them. If you are one of those people please just leave them alone, they didn't do anything to you. Don't expect us to be the ideal person you want us to be.

 Everybody makes mistakes, even you make mistakes too. Not everyone in this world live to please you. So just stop acting like a child and stop hating on someone for no reason. If you're just gonna sit there and send hate to people, telling them that they are ugly, is not gonna make you any prettier. Telling them that they are dumb, is not gonna make you any smarter. Telling them that they are fat, is not gonna make you any skinnier. 

So just leave them alone and I am sure that you are not worth any of our time. 

If you don't have the balls to say it in our face then you better stop sending hate at anywhere anonymously. Wonder why do haters like you stoop so low. By doing all of that, it just shows that you are jealous cause we are better than you. ;-)

I am not giving any fucks about you haters so.....


I also wanna thank all my supporters who have tweet to me and asking me to stay strong and cheer up. You people rock! Love ya xoxo!

Sunday, October 28, 2012


Hi, I guess I will be blogging more often right now as.....

And... I have got a small dedication for my boyfriend. ;)

We finally went out like after so many donkey years omg. We met up at NEX and went to Mos Burger for lunch. :-)

To be very honest, ever since the End Of Year Examinations got nearer and nearer, we don't really hang out anymore. We call it "keeping a distant from each other so that we could concentrate more on our studies". Yes, we met and talk in school but it was only like for a 15 minutes or so... IT SUCKS!!! But at least we wished each other good luck and all the best. That is what I can only ask for during the exam period. I didn't want him to get distracted or anything....

So.......... I got pretty paranoid and insecure at that point of time when we were not spending time together anymore. I don't know why, part of the reason is because of my monthly "BEST" friend and the others, were just my thoughts that have been running through my mind at that time. I don't get myself sometimes too... I know he is sick and tired of me repeating the same things over and over again. I trust him, with all my heart. BUT, he didn't reply my text for like HOURS, it felt like years though, so I kept spamming him with texts and calls. He got annoyed and we quarreled pretty much everyday. Things happen, bad things happen. We didn't bother to talk things out because it was the exam period so we both simply just close one eye and wait till when the exams are over, we will talk about it...

Up till now, TODAY was finally the day that we went out for a proper lunch!!! Probably the best day of my life. We finally talked things out and everything was okay. I love all our heart to heart talks that we always have in the past, and today? HE HE HE we talked about hell loads of things. I was happy, he was happy. We were both joking with each other. Argh I am so glad that we are back to normal right now. I know you all are probably wondering why I am so fucked up and being such a bitch but never mind... HA!

Walked around NEX and he talked about getting his ear pierced, he asked if it will hurt or not, I said no and I used my nails to pinch him on the earlobe and said "IT IS JUST LIKE A LITTLE ANT BITING YOU LAH BABY" DANG IT, his reaction was so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeee. YES CUTE!!! But I think his parents will probably fuck him up if he got his ear pierced. WE TALKED, LIKE A LOT..... About life, about us, about ourselves, about what we are going to do... I AM SO GLAD I MET HIM. :') 

Hi boyfriend!

If you are reading this,
I want you to know that you are the best thing that has ever happened to me.

The very first day when we met, we were joking with each other about you buying all the pink stuffs to make me jealous, and trying to gain every girl's attention.... It was pretty awkward when I first talked to you.

I know you love me very much and you are sick and tired of my bullshits, insecurities and paranoia.

I am sorry, that you have to put up with all this shit. But I am glad that you endured and assure me with your words. Though we had lots of ups and downs, and trust issue is what breaks us apart... I hurts me, hurts me so much to see you ignoring me sometimes when I really need you by my side but I know you are stressed up because of the examinations, don't worry, I feel you baby!!! And I know, it sucks to have your girlfriend by your side to fuck you up and doing anything that will make you feel like shit hehehe.

You are my world, a part of my world. You are my best friend, my boyfriend, my shopping buddy, my comfort and my strength. You bring me happiness, you make me cry, I feel bad about me, myself, being a bad girlfriend but I still love you more and more every single day.

The bond that we have, nobody can break it, NOBODY!!!

Yeah, I know I might be the crazy, paranoid, insecure and mind-controlling freak, and sometimes I have this kind of thoughts... "Wait, why did he love me!?!?!?" Not many guys can be as faithful as you, you know?! Being together with a crazy bitch like me must be really very hard for you...

You know I can do anything to find out the truth right, so don't you dare lie to me!!! If you lie to me ah, YOU'RE DEAAAAAAAAAAAAD DEAD DEAD DEAD. Hahaha just joking.....


I don't get you sometimes...

When you say you don't care the first second, and the next, you get mad at something that I do... Yeah yeah, it's sweet but really kind of complicated to understand what you're feeling or what is going on in your head!!! I am complicated!?!?!?! You are more complicated baby. ;-)

Every instinct of my body is telling me to be careful sometimes, because the promises you made, you'll always break it. 

And, you know yourself I can't risk myself getting anymore heartbreaks because I can break down any second... Everybody makes mistakes, everybody lies, everybody breaks people's heart. But you need to know that you can't always fix my heart every single time after you break my heart, and even if you did, scars are still left behind. I may forgive, but I definitely CANNOT forget.

Alright, it is just a small little dedication for you....... TEEHEE ;-)

Baskin Robbins with Adriana and Erin the other day!!!

Free period during school because my mtl teacher never come!



At Rachael's house having our second round of lunch!!!

And me....

Good bye you all! This was a impromptu post so yeah.... Stay tuned xo!!!

Friday, October 26, 2012



Yesterday was the promotion day! Everyone had their ups and downs in my school but yesterday, for the sec 3s, are our most important day of our life. We all teared a little, maybe because of your friends who cried upon receiving the bad news or teared a lot because you yourself received a very shocking news... We all screamed and put a wide smile on our faces, because we knew that we were promoting to sec 4E/4NA/4T and seeing our classmates again!!!

SO.... YES, I got promoted to sec 4NA, I must really really really not waste this chance that my teachers had given me. At the start of the year, I didn't really bother to concentrate in class because I was easily distracted. Until I got my mid year's results, THAT was my wake up call and I begin to study real hard. I know myself that it is abit too late to study at that point of time when I didn't really absorbed anything into my brain when I was in class.

I admit that I didn't really study like shitload out of my head cause I sometimes slack a little too but I am sure my hard work paid off! I met the requirements of passing English and two other subject. But when I received my paper, I wasn't happy YET. Because I know that my mid year papers are gonna pull down my overall percentage/result. 

I prayed and crossed my fingers. And when I received my report book, I WAS EFFING HAPPY. Jumping around and going to find my other friends to ask whether they got promoted or not. And majority of them did, I am happy for them too! But, some did not, I watched them cry, I felt horrible... I mean like, almost 3 years of friendship and of course you would be unhappy if your friends are upset, right? But all of them have to accept the fact that is right in front of their face. No matter what you do, it has it's consequences... Just suck up those tears and study extra hard!!! 


Alright, enough of all of that!!!

10/22 - MONDAY

Went out with Adriana, Rachael and Ariel on Monday as we have no school. Left the house to meet that at serangoon mrt at around 9+ and they all reached at 10. We headed to Bugis and had kfc for breakfast.

Went to bugis+ after that, went to sephora first and I AM FOR SURE GONNA BUY WONDERSTRUCK BY TAYLPR SWIFT!!! Then, we headed to new look and try out some heels.

Headed to town after leaving new look!

He is so cute omg!!!

The CG was rather unfriendly but never mind..... HA HA HA she looks really pissed whenever she helps any other girls to take a polaroid or a picture.

At cotton on, this heel's size was too small and I was squeezing into it, can't find any other smaller sizes, others are all too big for me. :(

While we are walking to somerset, RACHAEL AND I SAW GEORGE YOUNG OMG. I ran after him like hell. He turned to me and said hi and I asked if I could take a picture omg!!! I am sure a happy girl on that day. Rachael was pissed at herself because when George Young walked away, she didn't stop him for a picture. OH AND, he said "Have a great monday girls" to us awwww he is so cute!!!!!!!

At vivo

My legs are so ugly rn, argh.... :(

The sun is like literally burning me, I could barely open my eyes completely for a picture...

Ariel left then we rest awhile more and walked around.


They went to buy the rice cake thingy and we settle down at a table to eat!

After that, we went to cotton on to try out some dresses and I LOVE IT!!! hehe then we headed home. When I reached home, I was feeling sick, and then I took my temperature, I had fever.... Sigh, but thank God I recovered the next day because it was just a slight fever!

23/10 - TUESDAY

The best day I ever had in school that day.

Divian, Jacqui and DeeKosh came to my school and gave sec3s a talk!!!!!!!!!!!!

(they posted up the first group of sec3s who went in first) photo credit: 987fm

photo credit: 987fm


The very first activity that they did with us was the Gangnam Style Dance Challenge. They asked us to point out the most playful/idk what they said classmate, and Adriana, Rachael, Ariel, Nameerah, Sazlynna and the rest pointed at me. But I didn't want to go up. So Moses went up, and then DeeKosh asked me to go up cause the people around me are pointing at me... Yep, at first I didn't know what they will be asking us to do then when they said we need to do the Gangnam Style Dance everybody went "OHHHHHHH" and Adriana, Rach and Ariel got so worked up because we did the Gangnam Style Dance Parody Video... -_-
Ariel took a video on my phone.......... LOL! Then Divian borrowed Moses his sunglasses and said that he look like PSY HAHAHAHAHA. The music started, I was asking Jacqui if I can go down and sit again because I didn't have the guts to do and my whole face was super RED... So she said she will accompany me and I was holding on to her hand so tightly lor okay hahaha! Then when the song hits "oppa gangnam style" I just started dancing, danish did too but I am not so sure about Moses. But then I stopped and laugh because Jacqui was shocked that I really did it... Then I continued again.... Hahaha Deekosh chose danish as the winner. :) 

Then, they talked about being a DJ and stuffs like that....

And then James, Asri and Elfian went up to do another challenge, they need to read the sentences and follow Divian's hand, and when it goes up, their voice must go higher and when it goes down, their voice must go lower and when it is in the middle, they need to remain as their normal voice. IT WAS SUPER FUNNY HAHAH! Divian asked all of us to choose the winner by cheering for each of them, the one who receives the  loudest cheer wins! AND ELFIAN WON HEHEHE!

What I got from them as a prize for doing the gangnam style dance


 with my sister

Alright, that's all for today!!! Next post will be about my last day of school!!! Stay tune xoxo! :)