Thursday, May 31, 2012

Jealousy kills

Hi y'all! Updating my blog again. As I promise some of you that I'll update about me and my boyfriend yay, finally got all the pictures that we took and I'm sooooo happy about it, don't know why. I'm having my dinner with him and my sister tonight, more pictures + my sister can help us take yay! 
And, I should briefly tell you about what I will blog about today. 1) I'LL RANT ABOUT JEALOUSY AND RELATIONSHIP. *inserts a very scary song because it'll prolly waste all of your time* but you can skip it if you want to. 2) Update on pictures when I went out with my aunt! 3) Babyboy and me on his birthday weeeeeee. So let's start!

 I'm just stating about jealousy through my relationship experience with my dearest lover boy, Damien okay. So correct me if I said anything wrong don't take it to heart. AND, most importantly I AM NOT REFERRING TO ANY ONE OF YOU PEOPLE, so chill and enjoy! 

I bet all of us have been jealous before (insecure or paranoid = jealous). Reason why? Mostly because of friendships and bgr (boy girl relationship). I admit that I've been jealous before and lots of DRAMA, I mean really, there's a whole lot of drama going on after I get jealous. As this quote says that "When guys gets jealous, it's cute. But when girls gets jealous, it's World War III". Kinda agree to that quote but no, it's not just World War III, it's worse than World War III. Ok, moving on to what I've experienced and I know I'm at fault too but whatever~

Imagine if your boyfriend/girlfriend has a very close friends which is a opposite sex, they talk everyday through text and in school. They cheer each other up easily, tell each other about their problems and think you don't exist in this world. How will you feel? Insecure, jealous and paranoid AND obviously you'll be scared to lose him/her. Agree?

Yeah, I experienced that before. Even quarreled with my boyfriend and his "CLOSE FRIEND". I'm not saying that I'm against him from talking to girls but it's just too much, there's limit to everything. Okay, what if this happens to you..... 
Your boyfriend/girlfriend is sick and you just want to ask if he/she is okay and take care of him/her but..... your boyfriend/girlfriend totally asked you to FUCK OFF and don't care about him/her. But.... When a friend of his, opposite sex, asked if he/she was okay and his/her reaction will be like "No I'm not, I want to go home" and act like he/she is very blessed and is FUCKING HAPPY. How will you feel? 
Mind fucked, sad, heart broken, like a knife just stabbed into your heart, jealous, YOU JUST FEEL LIKE YOU WANT TO DIE. Okay maybe y'all will just say "Leave him/her because you deserve someone better" but, what if, you really love him/her and don't want to leave him/her? You'll obviously feel that way. And yes, that is what I EXPERIENCED. I'm not here to say something bad about my boyfriend but I'm just here to say that, people who have experienced things like that or something like that, you're not alone. I'm on the same boat as you. 

What's worse than being alone? Being used, lied to, mind fucked over and over again, abandoned, left behind and completely forgotten. So, people who complain that they're forever alone or whatever, should think real hard before you get into a relationship. I know this is like no link to what I'm saying but just a piece of advice. Just saying.

This is for the girls who complains that they find "Jealous Girlfriends" annoying. If you were in our shoe, you'll feel the same way so just shut up and don't judge us. Why are we so paranoid, insecure and BEING JEALOUS? Because we love him. Simple. Maybe because you don't really go and love someone before but put yourself in other's shoes before you go on with your nonsense biatch. (Ok, I've gotta chill but I'm just speaking up for the girls who got called annoying, bitch who gets jealous easily over nothing. Probably you always have all your attention to everyone that you don't even know that the ones you love have been stolen by someone who KNOWS HOW TO LOVE and who KNOWS HOW TO BE JEALOUS because it's cute when we, girls, get jealous too (it's not only the boys who are cute okay). 
I know all this are nonsense to people who are single (not all but maybe some?) but I'm just stating the facts of WHY we get jealous, paranoid and sensitive. 
Maybe those girls who bitch about us girls, who are in love, should get a life because they're gonna feel that way too. Then maybe, in the future they'll regret what they said in the first place about jealousy and say this "Wait, maybe you're right. I get jealous too. Because I finally know how to love someone and really give him my attention only." LOL makes no sense but I'm just having fun ya! 

Gonna reply to this image above because I feel like, and I reply like as if this person is my friend blah blah.

You don't know anything about us. (Not everything but just a little maybe?) He mean the whole world to me. I don't know if this is how you feel but this is how I really feel. I can't just don't give a fuck and pretend that what he has done/said means nothing at all to me because it just hurts me so much that I could die. It's not that I want to let him ruin my day, it's just hit up to me, like a thousand of knifes stabbing me through my heart, you should know that feeling too. I'm not like you. When it comes to love, I will get weak. Everybody will break down and cry out loud. But weak people like me? Will just pms all the way when he did something wrong or said something that could hurt me. 
OKAY NONSENSE BUT WHATEVER. I'm just acting as if I'm in that situation because I've been in that kind of situation before!

Done with my rants, shall move on!

As I promised, that I'll update on the pictures when I went out with my aunt, here are the photos. :-) 
Photos are not in order.

Polaroids we took


Look at how fucken tall he is............

Okay so moving on, again. On the 22nd May. Is my babyboy's birthday so after school. We went to Kallang Leisure and watch "What to Expect When You're Expecting" rate it 3.5/5. Hehe okay shall let the pictures do the talkings.

@Coffee Bean

Happy boy enjoying his brownie cake HAHAHAHHA

He's reading the book I made him yay. Took me a long time to do it okay! Oh and I also bought him a baggu bag, Turquoise. And, he straight away want to use it LOL.

Step close eye only LOL


I'm ending this post with few pictures of me, to annoy you people.

This is funny LOL

And my nails done by me, myself yay so proud! Did this for 3 fucken hours......

Bye!!!!!!!! Will update soon again. Gonna go for dinner with my babyboy and sister later~

Monday, May 28, 2012

Wild Child

I know I haven't been blogging for about two weeks.......... Because of Mid Years and that I'm too lazy to blog but here I am, blogging again. I know I've already lost tons of readers and yeah, even though I have promised you guys that I will update like very soon but I still drag the update sooooooo I'm sorry!!!!!

Thought have been running through my mind and I'm thinking if I really do mean a thing to anyone or not. Feels like I'm just a spare tyre or a shit to every single one of the people I love. Well, don't wanna rant over here and irritate or destroy you people's mood so ya, should move on to my update! There are 2 parts anyway!!!! :-) 

Went out with my aunt on the 19/20, I can't remember but anyways, my #ootd

We decided to have our lunch at The Marmalade Pantry @ION, it was packed at first but the waiter took down my number and called when there's a seat so when we got down to the first floor then the waiter called. -_- So we need to walk all the way back up, again. We did lots of talking, but sadly my cousins, Celine and Eileen were not able to make it because they'd to go back to school so yeah... Kinda sad cause my aunt was planning to surprise them hahaha. My shen shen (in chinese) is now having her third child and it's a boy, bet my grandma will be so damn happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

So, my aunt told us about the times when we were young because I was super close to her and all my relatives said that I am the smaller version of her. She said I was like a monkey. And when my sister was born, my aunt played with her and my sister bite her so she walked to me and tell me "I don't like your sister. She bite me!!!!!!" Even though I bite her too, but she know I was obviously playing with her hahaha. Oh and ya, she told me that she wanted to name me "Quinn" in the first place but my shen shen and mum didn't agree to it and she was very disappointed. "Quinn" is so American lor, doesn't suit me but since it's what my aunt likes, I like it too yay! ^_^

We had a super long day after that, walked the whole of town but except for fep. Headed over to scape cause my aunt need to get a polaroid for my grandma cause my grandma find it very cool hahha. So we headed back to cine and she wanted to buy us something and said "that is what a aunt must do for her nieces so let me buy something for y'all" (something like that). I feel so blessed. We headed to taka after that, to get my smallest uncle his present and guess what!? It's a electronic toothbrush and it caused her........................ SGD200/300!? Wow okay. So jealous because she's using credit card right now, I wish I have one too! :-( 

At 5.50 we went to watch The Avengers 3D, rate it 4.5/5 but I'd rather catch the non-3D cause it's better, the 3D doesn't do much, sigh. After the movie, went to bk to dabao dinner back home and yep!!! I'll let the pictures do the talking, not all photos are uploaded but I promise I'll update about this again. :-)

All this photos were taken @cineleisure frolick :-)
While my aunt went to order, saw this guy walking out of Seoul Garden and planking on the floor for a few seconds. Literally laughed out loud with my sister but they're sure playing truth or dare. LOL

Guess how old my aunt is? ^_^

Polaroid taken with her. <3

She bought this Polaroid for grandma! :-)
Done with Part 1! :-)


Met up with Linda on Saturday, 26. Been so long since I last saw her. She was wearing heels and I feel like a dwarf. :-( Hehe should have wear heels but I know my legs will hurt like @#$%^&^%$#@. Didn't take much pictures but here's one photo of us HIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!

My buys:
Revlon Concealer, Lancome Virtuose Drama Mascara, Babylips Maybelline, Revlon PhotoReady foundation, a bling bling hand accessories from F21, Bio-Essence bb cream, and a mask that Linda bought but she gave it to me. :-)

Photo taken when I got back home.

With mommy teo <3

GIFs I took on gifboom, myself

During lesson period, HAHAHAHAHA

Two pictures without make up!!!! Feel so fresh hehehe

I am totally in love with Nina Dobrev and Ian Somerhalder, waiting for The Vampire Diaries Season 4 to come out weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

Bye!!!!!!!!!! :-) x