I don't know how to handle so many things... I am very confused, I'm in need of help, but whose gonna help me? So what about life lately? Pretty much a bitch. Things ain't going as smooth as it should be. Seen the uglier side of people and done real bad things.
Lacking of sleep recently, whenever I am lying on my bed, I just can't sleep or prolly somebody comes and spoils my "I am going to sleep" mood.
How the fuck are you going to control your emotions when it'd comes to hurling towards you in a ball. All in a pile of shitty emotions. Zzz, swallow up your emotions vanessa. ENDURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes, I’m scared and jealous. I’m scared that you think she’s pretty, that you will find her more interesting, that you will think she’s so much better than me. I’m scared that you might leave me soon. I’m jealous that she gets to see you, that you talked to her, that you had fun with her. I’m scared and jealous. I’m being all paranoid, because you really mean a lot to me, you mean the world to me... but are you feeling the same way too?
When a woman says 'Nothing's wrong' that means everything is wrong.
and When a woman says 'Everything's wrong' that means everything is wrong.
We girls/woman are just complicated and hard to understand, sometimes when we say 'go ahead and do what you want' sacarstic-ly, it means, don't ever do it. But it will depend on what she wants you to do. If it's something she don't like, don't ever do it for your own goodness sake.
and just because she didn't say anything, that doesn't mean she don't care about you, deep down, she really care a lot about you.
Between every love story of a happy pair of couples, there's always a whore who will be ruining their relationship.
and yep, some bitches/sluts/whores will definitely come and be a third party and destroying people's relationship.
I've got into quite a lot of situation like this, but it's the worst that I could ever experienced. They flirt, seduced or whatsoever they can do to my boyfriend. -.- Fucking annoying, and I really hate them to the core. Some girls just talk to him for important stuffs, I don't bother about it... but when it comes to them flirting and asking my boyfriend to go out or attracting his attention, I can't wait to just give her a tight slap or a fucking punch. Some even tried to make up stories to just like want my boyfriend's attention? IRRITATING MUCH.
That goes to the girls I hate, but some girls flirts him, and I go talk to them, and we turned out being friends, but that doesn't mean I'm in good terms with them, I don't hate them, but just dislike them but....... STILL FRIENDS.....
A BROKEUP STORY
Boy: I broke up with her.
His Best Friend: What happened?
Boy: She’s just too much for me.
His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?
Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..
Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..
Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..
Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..
Boy: Well, she..
His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?
Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?
His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.
Got this from my friend's blog. And thought of posting it over here, well that bastard totally do not know how to think, it's his loss!
Will stop the ranting, will rant when I want again!
HAPPY 6TH MONTHSARY BABY! ♥
Here's a dedication to you ah. ♥ Don't say I never post anything for you and this blog's only for what I want to rant or whatsoever. Less nonsense, and more typing for you.
Baby your the best, your words assure me the most and you make me stand after every fall! I know that your here for me and what please me the most is that your always there for me, no matter what. I always rant to you at how insecure I am at times and how paranoid I can get over certain issues and your still patient with me. God... Everyone knows that your the best that I can ever get so I'll hold you tight and I'll never let you go babyboy! I know that your true to me and you might be the only one in the entire world who will not turn your back against me, when everyone else does. I love you silly, I really love you, ALOT!!!
Ever since I get to know you, I really really admire you. I don't know why, but I just have that feeling that your the guy for me, the perfect guy for me. After things get all lovey dovey and yep, you made your first step by ASKING. You were really cute whenever we are hanging out with each other, even with friends your always paying your fullest attention to me. Taking care of me and really shower me with a lot of love. Your such a sweet guy, at times you even y'know... and made my heart really break into pieces and just want to hug you and say "I LOVE YOU FOREVER, BABY I REALLY DO"
You are the only sweet guy I have ever came across, no one's gonna replace your place okie. Everything have been okay for us for the first few months, but after that we really got all messed up and got into big Big BIg BIG trouble, :( We still stay calm and solve it together as one, right? :)
and yes, I’m scared that you think she’s prettier, that you will find her more interesting, that you will think she’s so much more better than me. I’m scared that you might leave me soon. :( I’m jealous that she gets to see you, that you talked to her, that you had fun with her. I’m scared and jealous. I’m being all paranoid, because you really mean a lot to me, you mean the world to me. You really mean a lot a lot a whole lot to me baby!
I promise you, I won't talk about the pasts anymore. Sorry for argueing/fighting with you everytime, because of me being all paranoid. I remember the laughs of the both of us, the fights we had, the times when both of us cried... I remember everything you have ever said, all the scars that I have left behind when I'm completely heart-broken and hurt. But I'll always remember the promise that I swear and made to god, to love you till the very end. I might not be the perfect/best girlfriend that you'd ever want and I know deep down in my heart I'm not, but at least I gave you my heart and shower you with care and love. Y'know that I love you and I miss you more than the words I can tell. All I need is you love, your heart,your body and the care for me... that's what I really need and what I always need.
Baby, I love you and I always do, forever and always. Although things are cliche for us now and we can't stay in a close distance, but remember, my heart's always with you. ♥ I know, you've suffered enough with me thru this 6months! and well, I'd better give you a break sometimes if not you'll have headaches! I got all upset this morning because I thought you've forgotten about something, but you actually did. I'm sorry if I've mistaken you. :( Your all sweet and lovely, kept smiling to myself whenever I see your/our picture or our conversations in our texts! Your the perfect boyfriend for me, and I ain't gonna let you go. DLMG, I love you. ♥
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Done with dedication. So now back to pictures... hmmmm as all the pictures are with baby, I'll just find some pictures that I have yet to upload. :)
I supaaaaaaaaaaaaa love ma' boy okie. So enjoy....... :)
Ahbeng ._____.
I super love this, he's fucking cute.
I actually tip-toed. Too short :(
Okay no more byebye! Will update again if I have something to update. HA, my sentence ji cute yi xia sia.
AND QUOTE TO MYSELF: Na si wa wu ji pa ban, I'll go shopping like freeflow.
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