Monday, August 22, 2011

Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, and you meant nothing to him.

Here's a video of how taiwan people judge on our english...
Our english are like so much better than them, it's their pronunciation wrong. -.-

Hey readers!!!

I haven't been really updating about life recently huh? and also, not having proper updates. I know i'm being a lazy girl... Need to have a hair cut like seriously! Hair cannot maintain, keep on fly here and there, super messy.

Myself in school uniform, like seriously, my school uniform is mehhhhh, not nice at all :(

Life isn't that good now... School's stressing me out with exams and stuffs, and I always have major headaches which always leads me to have a very very bad temper. Even my friends say that they are not used to the "fierce vanessa" omg :( Some even say I look like a witch, cause my fringe super long now, and I laugh like one mad girl. Exams are coming, everybody must really work hard for it! AND YES, to all sec 4s and 5s, all the best to your Nlevel and Olevel! Do your school proud! :) As for myself, I need to work extremely hard for my exams, so really really really am stressed out. I really don't wanna retain like how the sec2's this year who are suppose to be sec3!

I mean like, come'on who will be very proud of themselves when they retain? You would just probably be like embarrassed, right? Who would be like "Hey, i'm a retain-er, i'm so proud of myself. PEACE YEAH SUCKERS!" who will be like this? No right, in fact... My class, YES there are retain-ers! but y'know how they feel? They told me this:
"Not much of my type of friends to mix with."
"It is rather boring to listen to what teacher say last year!"
"I regretted not studying, will study hard this year."

I've got all this comments from them, and they've really changed and work hard, as you can see... an one age gap is also quite tough for them, because they don't know what we're talking/doing, in fact they'll think that we're childish. heh, what for talk about this stuffs?

People have been talking about how i'm doing with my boyfriend...

No worries guys, i'm fine with him. He's just so sweet, my sillybum forever okie! I even had silly questions like "u really love your boyfriend so much??? have u ever fucked him???" haha so cute! Nevertheless, I won't give away my virginity off to someone just like this, no matter if I really love him till the extend that I'll die for him, but no dear I won't fuck anyone now. Wait until I get married then ask me that okie sweetie! As for other suckers who are judging on my boobs, well who needs big boobs? You yourself? I can see that you really want one really BIGGGGGGGGGGGGG BOOBBBBBBBBBBBBS for your guy to suck yeah? I'm still growing. :) No worries!

Well, so life with my sillybum is totally awesome. We've totally learned a lot from each other. And loved each other more. Somewhere between our laughs, stupid little fights, and all our little jokes I fell in love, a very very deep one... I could just like give him my everything and sacrifice anything for him no matter what cost... Unfortunately, our relationship wasn't that smooth last month(July), a lot of things happened... Big fights and got really emotional, don't want to talk about it anymore. Who cares? :) It's already over, at least we're all doing great awesome good best now!♥

Got this really cool thing from my friend's status. & decided to write on baby's wall... I hope he sees it by like today or tomorrow? hehe♥

and after I followed the instructions......




Life's always have ups & downs... SO ALL OF YOU GUYS OUT THERE, must stay strong okay! I believe a lot of you are in relationship troubles or friendship problems... Our life's fucks us all... So we can't possibly blame on ourselves on being useless and stuffs, if it's meant to be then let it be. :) Haven been so really into taking much pictures... and my blog is like short of pictures... :( Heng heng I took some pictures yesterday! and yeap, although it's ugly, at least it feels up this BIG BIG SPACE!

I have awesome juniors from my school came hugging me and saying I've a good life,
perfect relationship
good life

But no, it isn't as good as what they say...

I have freedom, but I don't wanna misuse it if not my mum is really gonna go crazy if something happened to me.

Yes, i'm in love. But sometimes... single is better/// :)

Perfect relationship? There's no such things. :( but my relationship with baby is awesomeeeeee. :B

Good life? Try being me and tell me how you feel. :)

Hehe I remember I was super childish last time... Monkey see monkey do laaaaaaaa. Go and stupid stupid cut my hand for don't know what. Girls, for my opinion, it's better if you go out with your cliques and enjoy. Or just tell someone how you feel? :) Than hurting yourself, leaving scars behind is no good, because once it's there it's forever there. Why wanna remember it like forever? Forget about it and party hard.

Currently listening to the song "Love you like a love song- Selena Gomez"

I'm like so in love with that song. It totally describes how I feel now, and obviously how I feel towards my boyfriend. HEHHEHE

Here's the lyrics:

[Verse 1]
It's been said and done
Every beautiful thought's been already sung
And I guess right now here's another one
So your melody will play on and on, with best of 'em
You are beautiful, like a dream come alive, incredible
A centerfold miracle, lyrical
You've saved my life again
And I want you to know baby

I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hittin' re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hittin' re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

[Verse 2]
Constantly, boy you played through my mind like a symphony
There's no way to describe what you do to me
You just do to me, what you do
And it feels like I've been rescued
I've been set free
I am hyptonized by your destiny
You are magical, lyrical, beautiful
You are...I want you to know baby

I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hittin' re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hittin' re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

No one compares
You stand alone, to every record I own
Music to my hear that's what you are
A song that goes on and on

I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

And I keep hittin' re-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat

I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby
I, I love you like a love song, baby

I love a love song...

NCC camp.... Unglam :(

Sec 1.... No changes eh?

Sec1 around end of year...

Sec2 beginning of the year...

USS! :)


My dearest sister, and the most irritating girl in the whole wide world.♥

Before going to the wedding, me and my sister.♥

My camera skill that time jialat! ha, but now can maintain liao ^.^

My sister, my tuition teacher and me.

With my twin VANESSA.♥

With baby, still got that innocent face that time. :(

Chinese New Year

My dearest lil' cousin!!! She's super cute, always want me to carry her

My lil' babyboy cousin!

Hehe cute? ;)

Yixuan & me

Alright, enough of spamming of PHOTOS already. :) back to the talkings!

Not every relationships are very smooth...
As for my experience, with my boy;

I'm a person who is sensitive and gets jealous real easy. I know, I admit that I'm a over-sensitive bitch. But y'know? I'll do anything or risk anything for him. ♥ To keep him by my side, I must really really be very very protective towards him. I know you guys and girls out there will also protect your girlfriend/boyfriend in any ways, right? :) Actions always speak louder than words, for now I'll just have to prove to my boy that I can study real hard and try to achieve good results! It's not like your own love-mate won't ask you to study hard right? heh

Everybody wants a perfect relationship, who doesn't? I'm seeing all sweet and loving couples walking on the streets, being all lovey-dovey... I'm one of them actually, but me and him we're different, we play around like friends, and of course love each other and quarrel with each other like married couples! People may say we are crazy, playing like mad around the shopping centre or places! But we are having fun ain't we? :) A lot of couples outside just like kiss/hug here and there, don't you find it boring? Why not just have fun with your loved ones instead of always being so RO-MAN-TIC?

Just party hard, do things your afraid to do, afterall we're all young once only.

So what if we get into troubles? Can't probably blame us right? Who doesn't make mistakes?

Some couples even go to the extend of fucking, and I guess they're real crazy. As for my opinion, wait until your married then fuck all you want la? Then can shiok liao ma! What for risk so much now? later your not be careful then pregnant how? hehe, just saying here ^.^ Not judging. :)

Tattoos are just pure arts. They are cool, but you needa spend a lot of money on it for just some fucking patterns, and I bet it's real pain for skinny girls...

Yes, I've been wanting to have a tattoo, Sarah and I discussed about it before, but our boyfriend don't let... heh, all boyfriends are the same don't want their girlfriends to have a tattoo, but mine is totally different and special in many different ways!♥ That doesn't mean that I can go get one tattoo, of course I can't get one...

Well, it's just too bad for me. Will just be dreaming about having a tattoo. :3

Roses are red, violets are blue... I love Damien Lim for life, and that's for sure. ♥

I just can't take my eyes off his cute & handsome face okie. and fyi, he's the best boyfriend I've ever got ever since my first stead. Y'know, he's just real special, and really very different from other guys out there. I need no good-looking boyfriend. I just need a boyfriend that makes my world beautiful and it's only us against the world.♥ Oh please, his just so so soooooooooooooooo sweet laaaaaaaaaa, I mean like which boyfriend would like not play blackshot and just spend his everyday with his own girlfriend?! hehe, I know it's hard on him to like not play blackshot, and even if I asked him to go and play with his friends on blackshot, he says that he wanna spend his everyday life, every second with me.♥ How sweet?!?!?!?!?!?♥

Shall stop about all those sweet things that he did, I'll just keep it to myself!

Okay guys, i'm gonna go off now! Bye bye xoxo. okay bye people! Goodnight and sweet dreams!